I keep washing my hands...because I love you.

I keep taking the pills...because I want you to love me back.


Commentary - Synopsis - Statement - Filmography - Cast and Credits



This film is about a love story.
It is a little bit out of "ordinary"
because the characters all suffer
from emotional disorder.

Chizuru, cannot leave her house because of "Panic Disorder".
Kou, cannot go to work because of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder."
Akane, suffers from hyperventilation because of PTSD.

"I'm not insane!"

They keep telling themselves.

"I'm not insane!"

Just wanting to be with their loved ones.
Not liking themselves for being "unordinary".
Always being afraid to lose their loved ones for who they were.

"Someone help me"

A heart that is breaking from wanting to be just "ordinary"
The ultimate loneliness of not being understood by "ordinaries"
Those who are not "ordinary" will soon come to realise.
That they still had lives to live on.
Learning to accept their disorder.
Learning to accept the disorder of the loved ones.
Keep continuing to live on.

"Don't want to be alone"

A heart that is wounded because it loved.
A heart that is saved because it loved.
One small step taken by "ordinaries", a mind-boggling time will be taken
for "them" to do the same.

But that's OK.
A step is a step.

This is a love story about "ordinaries" with emotional disorder.


  Synopsis of the film


"When I realized, I could no longer stop washing my hands"

Kou, a HIKIKOMORI, suffering from Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder(OCD), cannot stop washing his hands. His girlfriend Akane met Kou at a clinic where they attend, living together she supports Kou and dreams to be married. However, his OCD becomes worse and obsessions increase. What would Akane do...

"One day, the world seemed unreal..."

Chizuru who too goes to the same clinic, suffers from Panic Disorder(PD) and shuts herself from her mother, the only family. One night on her way home from the clinic, she has a PD attack and meets a boy called Yutaka. Chizuru looked as if she was able to open up to him but the attacks were too much for her...

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

Recurrent, unwanted and distressing thoughts which you cannot control. In an effort to make the obssesional thoughts to go away, rituals such as excessive handwashing, continuous tooth brushing and repetitive walking at one place are performed. This is called "Compulsions"

Panic Disorder

Characterized by sudden attacks of inexplicable feelings of terror and a fear. Pounding heart, sweating, trembling body or hands and feet, feeling of discomfort, nausea, dizziness, numbness, chills, flushes, fear of dyeing, fear of going crazy, feelings of unreality, feeling of being out of control. More than four of these symptoms occur at once. Attacks appear spontaneously and repetitively.


Posttraumatic Stress Disorder, or PTSD, is a psychiatric disorder that
can occur following the experience or witnessing of life-threatening
events. People who suffer from PTSD often relive the experience through
nightmares and flashbacks, have difficulty sleeping, and feel detached
or estranged, and these symptoms can be severe enough and last long
enough to significantly impair the person's daily life.


 A statement of the director on the film


HIKIKOMORI is a word that describes a person who seals and withdraws one's self from the world, or describes such condition. It is beginning to be recognized recently as an illness of Japanese modern society. There are two types of HIKIKOMORI. First type, are those who are afraid to leave their room or house and do not speak even with family members. Second type, are those who are able to go out but cannot adjust to school or society. It is believed that there are more of the second type than the first. No-one knows the precise reason for people to become
HIKIKOMORI but some statistics show that a number of them are suffering from emotional distress.

One wonders. Who and what decides whether a person is normal or abnormal? No- one has the perfect answer. We all feel insecure but try to live in this world. Based on creator's own experience, the film will realistically show lives of neurotic young adults and HIKIKOMORI, and how they suffered to have the courage to face the real "themselves".

We wish deeply that everyone, those suffering from HIKIKOMORI, their family and friends, and those who does not know about HIKIKOMORI to see and perhaps understand about them.


  Biography and filmography of the director


1975 Born in Tokyo
2000 Short length film "GAMER'S" directed (45min)
2001 "GAMER'S" screened in theaters with favorable reputation
2002 "Koboreru Tsuki" Moon Overflowing - First directing film (118min)


 Full cast and Credits list


Original title : Koboreru Tsuki
International Title : Moon Overflowing
Country of Production : JAPAN
Year of Production : 2002
Premiere Status : World Premiere
Original Format : Digbeta SP COLOR 118minutes
Original Language : Japanese / English Subtitles
Director : Ryota Sakamaki
Production Company : TASUNOKE
Producer : Kimie Takemura
Sales Company : TASUNOKE

Print Source

Screen Play : Ryota Sakamaki
Camera : Shigeru FUKUDA / Hiroki MITSUHORI / Ryota SAKAMAKI
Editing : Ryota sakamaki
Art Direction : Yoko TAKIGUTI / Megumi KUROYANAGI


Chizuru HATTORI : Yukiko OKAMOTO
Yutaka : Yukihiro OKANO
Tetsuya : Kenji HIRAI





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